Only for this time

''It's only for this one time, 
then it'll be over'',
she said to herself on their first date.

''Well ok, 
it's only for a few more times''
she said to herself when he came back a few days later.

''It's only 
for a few more months''
she tried to convince herself.

''What is to become of us?''
she wondered silently
as he held her tight
many many many months later.

''For life'', he had said.
''For as long as it lasts'', he had said.
Her adorable man.

''I love this man'', 
she said.